transit pluto square venus: wow, i'm not that pretty (part 1)

goddamn that pluto and his dark lessons. i've been staring in the mirror lately (like i usually do) and i realized that i'm uglier than i'd previously believed. that sucks, huh? you know how you can look in the mirror and really like what you see but then you get out a digital camera or stand in front of a webcam and realize, "oh my god, i look like an asshole, why am i taking a picture of this?" that's how i feel. why does the camera hate me with a passion. none of the pictures of me reflect what i see in the mirror- and i look in the mirror A LOT. (remember that i am a narcissist.)

i must take into account that i am also going through a pluto/mercury square transit, so my thoughts are anything but bright. but i'm realizing that i need to bump up my self-presentation. i've been working out regularly and am really starting to hate my hair again. and my face is breaking out again. aarrrgghh!

i've been through the ugly phase before, as i've also been through the pretty phase. hopefully, i'll emerge from these transits transformed yet again...

mars, pluto, the sun, and me

ok, so a while ago i wrote some nonsense about mars neglecting to manifest in my personality but i was totally wrong. i was just being moody with my mars in cancer. but the current astro-climate has me hostile and unsettled. mars, pluto, and the sun are squaring my natal sun and also triggering the natal sextile aspect between mars and the sun, mercury, and venus. jupiter is even involved as it sits in trine to those transiting agitators.

am i complaning, no, not at them moment. i'm sitting in my pajamas, at my computer on holiday break, which is a perfect environment. otherwise, i'd be at risk of scaring others with my volatile temper that rears its ugly head in random moments when things get blown out of proportion. i think i ended a friendship last weekend- lots of mars/pluto in the air.